Three people hurt me so bad, so bad. It's so nasty, so bitchy, so spiteful. It's subtle, yet with a little guessing and logical thinking it was so obvious what was going on. I had suspected it already since that day I missed and for dental. A little devil was clearly at work.
Psalm 55:1-15Listen to my prayer, O God,do not ignore my plea;hear me and answer me.My thoughts trouble me and I'm distraught.at the voice of the enemy;at the stares of the wicked,for they bring down suffering upon meand revile me in their anger.My heart is in anguish within me,the terrors of death assail me.Fear and trembling have beset me;horror has overwhelmed me.I said, "Oh that I had the wigns of a dove!I would fly away and be at rest-I would flee far away,and stay in the desert;I would hurry to my place of shelter,far from the tempest and storm."Confuse the wicked, O Lord, confound their speech.for I see violence and strife in the city.Day and night they prowl about on its walls,malice and abuse are within it.Destructive forces are at work in the city,threats and lies never leave its streets.If an enemy was insulting me;I could endure it.If a foe was arising himself against me, I could hide from him.But it is you, a man like myself,my companion, my close friend,with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship.as we walked with the throng at the house of God.Let death take my enemies by surprise;let them go down alive to the grave. for evil finds lodging among them. I was so tempted with revenge, tempted so bad that I almost gave in to temptation.But I tell myself, Lucifer confounded them, they were mere puppets in the Devil's Play.They are no more than fools who have no knowledge of what is right or what is wrong, and what they do was purely out of the evilness lodging within them.Lord, grant me the power to forgive them for their foolishness.Friendships turned sour because of a spiteful word implanted into their heads, turning them against me, I no longer wish to enjoy their companionship, because it merely shows how shallow her trust was in me, to not defend me against the malice she hears.I'm so sorry that it had to turn out this way.I wish to reject all this from me, I want to remove them entirely from my life, like using correction fluid to mark out mistakes.They are mistakes, mistakes that gone terribly wrong.Will they be saved?
